While I'd rather like to leave that last journal post before this one stuck on my profile page, I did say that if there was anything relative to my work here or in my life, that I'd post it. I just didn't say when my next post was

Looking at my previous posts, some posts from way back when I first started, I've realised that either I'll post up some random quiz type thing, or put up something relative to DA/art related stuff. However, that was a while ago, back when I was halfway through 16. It's amazing how many things can go in your life three years down the road, and how much you can change as a person.

There was a point in time where I did nothing but be idle because I couldn't find my style of expression through poetry or take up photography to the point where I was happy with the result. When the 'featured' feature (no pun intended, really ) propped up a while ago, I never bothered editing it for my gallery until a couple of weeks ago. I found old deviations which were nothing more than simple shots or easy poems.

Of course we all had to start somewhere. Not all of us are graced with born talents. Sometimes we have to experience life or new things in order to find out what becomes our mode of art. I found my style later on, when I embraced learning more about poetry, as well as photography.

My style and tools have changed over the years. Feel free to look through some of my old stuff to see. Comparing many of the deviations types that are in my gallery, poetry seems to be my calling more than photography or other art types, but I still try. Here and there you'll see other deviations that still express who I am and what I'd like to express.It seems lately have I realised that I potentially look better infront of the camera than behind it. Of course, this is nothing to be obsessed about; simply accepting that this is how I look and utilise it as best as I can, like many of the other deviants out there.

I recently was given as a present a Nikon D90, adding another wonderful tool to my resources. I last year joined my university's photography society in order to learn more about the field. I worked my way up within the society with my trusty little digital camera until I reached 2nd top: the role of Vice-President. On that little journey, I made wonderful friends, great relationships and practiced photographer here and there from people who were more than happy to let me have a go on their camera gear. Since I have a dslr of my own, I think I'll be able to learn more and take some great shots of my own. I'd like to do better than what I did when I initially started, but since I have more faith in myself, and see the world in a much more vivid light, I think I'll be more than able to come up with some great stuff.

Writing this all reminds me that I've gotten some of these talents from people in my family. Dance and voice from my mother; poetry and photography from my father. My latest poem, titled 'Legacy' is tribute to them both so please have a read when you can. That's all for now, hope this was a pleasant read to say the least. Until whenever.

I never thought that I’d blog again, not after certain events that passed all those months ago..

A lot has happened, and I never found motive to blog about it, or my life here on DA. I've always used other blogs, such as the website one that I had up on my profile.

I attempted to blog after some stuff, such as my brother's passing, a relationship and friendship breakdown; trying to sound ‘normal’ but I soon gave up. It became irrelevant. Understandably, it isn’t because to know of one’s daily routine allows a sense of closeness for those who are not in my daily life, as much as I wish them to. I’ve found that through no communication via blogging, I have to rely on my heart and communication skills to keep in contact with the people that matter the most.

I wanted to ascertain whether blogging was really something I wanted to continue. I wanted blogging to be an outlet for thoughts and rants when poetry or talking failed to create the same effect it has always done to me. To have a place where I can type out thoughts and not be judged for the insecurities and decisions I make. Life is all about learning experiences, is it not?

I hope this time around, I will not make the same mistakes that I have before, and I trust the people closest to me to understand that it is simply me learning what it means to be me. The only way that I justify myself now, at least to the eyes of the general public, those I wish to keep away from this personal piece of me; is through the artwork I place up on my profile. Hence why I bid you to try and decipher the meaning behind the art, so you may have a notion as to what passes on in this heart, soul and mind of mine.

I don't know when you'll expect another post, but at least I change the previous post of jester to one of a better understanding and indepth description of what is now.

Note: Sounds all the more serious haha, but I trust you to know that I'm the sort of person to play on words.

So I saw 's Journal about the Personality Type and thought I'd just have a little look see and see what I get.

To take the test: Here

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Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people (Alright, so I agree with what's being said). Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons (I've found that to be true so yay).

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome (Wow, I knew this to be true but in a way I've learnt to not have the 'burnout' by putting myself infront of others sometimes).

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood (Mm, depends on the criticism haha. Some things I wont take seriously but there are other things that I really do take hard). Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship (If I look at the current relationship I am now, I'm pretty sure that he's the right person, although saying the right person, as in who I'll spend my whole life with is still unknown. I wasn't looking for him, and I found him so whoo ).

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The test was pretty accurate so I'll suggest you have a go at it ^_^

Apologies.

One, for not updating these journals. Another, for not submitting any deviations. Ive got some poetry to upload so I'll do that.

Sorry again for this haha, been busy. Laptop crashed so I need to repair that, went back to KL for 2 weeks for a break and Im starting uni again so hah.

Laters xx

Oh wow, I haven't updated my journal since last year!? THAT'S AGES AGO

Well, I do have 3 sites so I cant possible update each and every one of them. What's new? Ive had an upload frenzy because I finally optimized the use of my camera. Thanks to some people Like and ^__^

Yet another quiz to pass time Ive been uploading more poems than pictures so don't expect that to change anytime soon.

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IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, iPaq etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…

01 - OPENING CREDITS: Lost Prophets - Hello Again
(Haha, I actually like it. It sounds kind of a mysterious drama.)

02 - WAKING UP: 30 Seconds to Mars - R-Evolve
(Sounds like something epic is going to happen.)

03 - FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL: SR-71 - Non-toxic
(Sounds like people dont pay attention to me but at the same time they do.)

04 - FALLING IN LOVE: Ne-yo ft. Joe Budden - Sexy Love (Remix)
(Oh damn~ <3)

05 - FIGHT SONG: J-Status - Roll
(Thats hot ^_^)

06 - BREAKING UP: Rufio - She Cries
(Wow XD)

07 - PROM: Celine Dion - This Time
(Sounds like a masquerade prom Where you just slow dance and you dont know who you're dancing with.)

08 - LIFE: Orange Range - Asterisk
(That sounds awesome.)

09 - MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply
(Must be way in love with that person to breakdown to this song.)

10 - DRIVING: The Click Five - Jenny
(Slow drive)

11 - FLASHBACK: Kim Ah Jung - Byul
(so sad ;___; Bittersweet memories~)

12 - WEDDING: Ayashi no ceres - scarlet
(Sad!)

13 - BIRTH OF CHILD: Linkin Park - valentine's day
(woah...)

14 - FINAL BATTLE: Pink - Don't Let Me Get Me
(WHATTHE-!?)

15 - DEATH SCENE: One Republic - Apologize
(It makes it sound that I died because of someone I loved..)

16 - FUNERAL SONG: Ciara ft. Lil Jon - Get On The Dance Floor
(It sounds like people think I died but Im really alive and watching, starting a new life.)

17 - END CREDITS: Fall Out Boy - One and Only
(Sounds like I got my payback haha).
(sums everything up)